(Intro: ♫ lonely violin music ♪)

            A boy named Lance in his 5 years of age he performed in the public by playing with his violin. He was conceder as the youngest talent of his country in the field of music. When he turned 12 years old he started his   international orchestral concert. He became popular then. Now his 17 years of age, he grew up as a handsome teenage boy. While he was being broadcast in the television, thousands of people appreciated his talent and music. One of them was Niña, 17 years of age too who was a pianist. She was an ordinary teenage musician. She idolises Lance for being famous. She admires him. She dreamed that one day they could play their music together.

            Despite of being famous, Lance was not free. He was being imprisoned from his personality. He was forbidden to make a mistake for people knew him as almost perfect. He was entitled as “The Perfect Piece”. His mother died when he was 8. She was the one who thought Lance on how to play violin and how to love music. His mother was a former pianist and a ballerina. She was famous too. But when she died, Lance became depress and all his music was in deep loneliness and sorrow. But the people didn’t know it. That the music they love had a deeper meaning. His father was a wealthy business man but still died a year Lance’s mother died.  Lance father and him were not so close, but still they loved each other. Before Lance’s father died, he married another woman who was a musician as well. Her name was Leona a pianist too. Lance expected that she would be like his mother. But when his father died her true identity was reviled. She was a worthless mistress. She was using Lance for her personal intensions, for she was materialistic.

            On the other hand, Niña’s life was just simple. She knew playing piano with her dad. Her mother died when she gave birth to Niña. Her father had a stroke, so her life was starting to become worst. But still she looked the world with the harmony of hope. Niña was a brilliant student. She had scholarship in the School of Music and Arts. There she pursues her dreams.

            Lance was enrolled in the same school. When Niña knew it she was overwhelm.  One day, Niña was looking for Lance to ask for some picture with her and an autograph. But suddenly she heard a lovely music♫ at the garden of their school. It was amazing. She keeps on finding it, till the music stops. Then she heard voices she found those people who where talking; “It’s over between the two of us. You didn’t value our relationship. You trough me away. Now it’s better off as friends.” Indeed by Noreen. She was Lance’s girlfriend since high school she was a ballerina. Lance was left alone in deep sorrow, and then he started playing his violin with a lonely music♪. For the first time, Niña saw Lance playing in person but suffering, for his heart was broken in to pieces. She was not contented; she wants to see Lance playing his violin with joy. So she promised her self to help Lance to feel the same way she looked the world, that the world has the harmony of hope.

            One afternoon with no students left, Lance was walking going to the Music Building, Niña was following him secretly. But Lance knew that somebody was following him but he still continued walking. Niña was hiding at the trees, plants, and walls every time Lance glances at his back for her not to be caught. When Lanced reached the music building he turned right. Then Niña lost Lance with her sight. She entered the building but can’t find anything. She was confused till she heard a voice saying; “Why are you following me?” ask by Lance. “I’m just. . . . I’m just” Niña was shocked. “You’re just what?” ask again by Lance. “I just want to have a picture taking with you and your autograph at the back.” reasoned out by Niña. “I have no time for picture taking but here’s my signature.” Lance signed and gave it to Niña. Then Lance went near to Niña and said, “Next time if you are asking something learn to say PLEASE.” Then Lance went back and said something again, “And don’t forget to say THANK YOU!” then he went inside the room. And Niña was ashamed. But still can’t believe that she had a conversation with him.

            “I’m home” Niña said. “Your father feel asleep while he was waiting for you.”

Tasha said. Tasha was Niña’s best friend since childhood. “You won’t believe on what happened at our school.” Niña was telling her best friend on what was happened during her conversation with Lance. “Why are you happy? He just imbarace you.” the reaction of Tasha. “You’re so mean. He didn’t imbarace me. He just thought me on how to…to…to be a fan!” reasoned by Niña. “Oh, don’t be silly.” said by Tasha. “He was so close to me. His chicks were near to mine. Gosh! He was so handsome. I love his smell and voice. And most of all I saw him playing his violin. But he was…” the uncompleted statement of Niña.  “He was what?” asked by Tasha. Then Niña went to her room and lay down on her bed. “He was sad.” Niña didn’t forget on what happened.

            The next morning, she went to Lance classroom but he was not around. She tried to find him at the garden but he was still not in there. “Maybe his absent. Maybe his sick. Love sick perhaps.” thought by Niña. (School bell ringing♫) when Niña was about to leave she saw him going to his car. “Oh! There he is. I thought he’s not here.” “Hey! Lance! Wait!” shouted by Niña. “You again! What are you trying to do? Why are you shouting?” reacted by Lance. “So you still remember me. But you still don’t know my name. By the way I’m Niña.” introducing her self to Lance. “Okay! Hay Niña! Now you’re contented? Now will you please leave me alone?” “I know your depress you can talk to me and I will listed to you. We can be friends.” suggested by Niña. “What do you mean? You knew some thing, do you?” indeed by Lance. He grab Niña to his car and he went in and he drove his car very fast going to their house. “Where are we going? Oh my gosh! No! Don’t! Please!” the funny reaction by Niña. “Are you nuts? I didn’t do anything to you. Your just imagining.” reacted by Lance. Then they arrived at Lance’s house. “Good evening senior.” greeted by the servants. “Take the lady inside the house and put her in conference room.” commanded by Lance. Then all the servants grab Niña and took her inside the house. She was dressed up with an elegant dress. “What are you doing? Where are we going?” asked by Niña who was very nervous. “Please stay there and wait for senior Lance.” Indeed by the servants. (The door opened) Lance went inside the room where Niña was. Lance was shocked when he saw Niña. For Niña became more beautiful. Then Lance went out again. “What have you done to her? Why is she dressed like that?” Lance told his servants. “Why senior isn’t good for her? Well change it.” Indeed by the servants. “I didn’t commend to dress her up. She’s not Nore…she’s just here to talk with me.” “We are sorry senior we thought…” “Enough you may leave.” Then the servants leave. When Lance went inside, then he was shocked again but this time it’s because when he saw Niña playing his mother’s piano playing the composed piece of his mother. It was perfectly played by Niña. “Get off from the piano!” reacted by Lance. “I’m sorry. I was mesmerized with this piano. There’s something special with this thing.” indeed by Niña. “Now ill be frank to you. Have you knew anything about me?” asked by Lance. “I knew a lot of things about you, cuz I’m your fan.” Niña said. “No, aside from that, what do you know about me?” a very serious question of Lance. “Nothing! I jut knew nothing about your personal life.” explained by Niña. “Then why did you say that I’m depressed?” “Cuz..cuz….” Niña was keeping her mouth not to tell anything. Then Lance went near to her. Face to face, till they almost kissed. Niña can’t help anymore, “Okay! I heard you talking with somebody. She broke up with you!” cried out by Niña. “So you really knew something. Lesson number three, DON’T LESTIN TO OTHER PEOPLE’S CONVERSATION!” indeed by Lance. I didn’t mean to listen to your conversation it just happened that I was there. (The door opened) “So! Who is that Lance? Tell me who is she.” The mistress reaction when she saw Lance almost kissed Niña because of the closeness of there faces. “She’s just my friend Madam.” “Really? She’s beautiful. What’s your name?” asked by Leona to Niña. “I’m Niña Madam.” replied by Niña. “Are you a musician too?” asked again by Leona. “I’m a pianist Madam.” Indeed by Niña. “Excuse me, Madam you have a call.” Indeed by the servant. “Nice to meet you Niña.” said Leona. (The door closed.) “Ok, time to go home. But before anything else I would like you to promise me not to tell anyone about what had you heard. Okay?” Indeed by Lance. “Okay!” replied by Niña.  They both drove going to Niña’s house. And when they arrived; “You know, here’s my lesson for you too. Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts." “Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after.” advised by Niña. Then Niña went outside the car. Lance opened the window and said “I don’t believe in happy ending cuz it’s just for fairytales.” Then Lance drove away. And Niña was left alone outside their house and said, “You haven’t let me say Thank You!” “And for me, fairytales are real because I became Cinderella awhile ago. But I don’t know if you where my prince.”

            The next morning, Niña went again to Lance. “Hey Lance! You haven’t let me say Thank You. And you haven’t said PLEASE when you grab me on your car.” Indeed by Niña. Then Lance didn’t talk to her and pretend that he hasn’t seen her. Niña continued following him. She keeps on talking to Lance even though she knew he was not attentive to her. She was like a crazy lady talking to her self. Niña do that every day and every day Lance would not listen to her. Till Niña opened the topic about Lance’s mistress, “Why you where not calling her mother? She’s your mother right now.” asked by Niña. “She’s not my mother! And I will never conceder her as my mother!” shouted by Lance. “Another lesson for you too, have RESPECT! I understand your situation. I know your still depressed but learn to leave the past.” commented by Niña. “You don’t understand losing love one!” Lance cried out. Then he runs away from Niña. Then she didn’t follow him. But the next morning Niña followed Lance again. Then Lance ignores her again. Every day it became a routine. Till one day Niña was not around. She was not following or disturbing Lance anymore. “Thanks God you let her out of my sight.” But deep on his mind, “what happen to her? Why she’s not here? Is there something wrong with her? Or did I hurt her? Or maybe she’s tired of following me cuz I don’t listen to her.” Lance was bothered about Niña. “Hey Lance how’s your friend?” asked by one of his schoolmate. “Huh? Why?” asked by Lance. “Don’t you know her father died last night.” informed by his schoolmate. “What?!” reacted by Lance. Then he drove towards Niña’s house. When he arrived, he saw Niña. She was not crying. She just sat down in front of her father’s coffin. “Hey there! Condolence.” greeted by Lance to her.  “Remember when you told me; you don’t understand losing love one? Well now you have seen me in sorrow. Now you’ll believe on me that I had understood your situation in losing love one here in front of my father’s coffin. I had felt it every time I saw my father missing my mom and the reason of my mother’s death is me. I had felt losing love one every time I saw others having their mother. And the worst is. Every time I felt it, I feel ashamed because I was her death.” Cried out by Niña while tears fall on her chicks. Then she saw Lance offering his handkerchief. Then she took it and thank him.

            The day of the burial Niña was in deep sorrow but still she shown the people that her dad thought her to be strong. Then she said, “Dad, kiss me to Mom. Now you’re together. I know both of you are happy. Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine.”

            After a week from the burial, Niña went to school. Then she hasn’t yet bother Lance. She was all alone. She was still in sorrow. (♪ School bell ringing ♫) It was lunch break when Niña was sating down in the bench of their canteen alone when suddenly she heard a voice; “Excuse me. Can I sit with you?” it was Lance. Then a smile was seen to Niña for the first time after the death of her father. “You miss me, do you?” asked by Niña in a joke way. And a smile was just the reaction of Lance. And it was the first time Niña saw the smile of Lance. “You know, it’s my first time to see you smiling. And you look more handsome.” reacted by Niña. “It’s because of you. You made me realize something.” indeed by Lance. Then Niña blushed. “Are you done eating?” asked by Lance. “No I haven’t started eating yet.” replied by Niña. “Can I eat with you?” requested by Lance. “Yah, sure. But isn’t orchard eating together? Cuz you see, I only have this simple meal, while yours…” “No! It’s not orchard. I also eat those foods. You like exchanging food?” the reaction of Lance. “Are you sure about that? Did you eat something that you change like that?” then Lance didn’t reacted but instead he took Niña food and eat it, then he gave his food to her. “Wow. This is great! Now I can eat this expensive dishes.” the reaction of Niña. Then every day they where together and every day they known each other well. Till one afternoon Lance grab Niña. “Now where are we going? You know I had noticed you always grab me. And make some surprises.” reacted by Niña. When they arrived at the back of their school, he took his violin and played a lovely music. Then Niña was shocked. Her wish came true. And she haven’t noticed her tears where falling. When Lance finished his playing he saw Niña crying then he wiped her tears with his handkerchief. Then Niña was crying out loud. Then Lance hug her. It was a perfect afternoon for Niña. Then she whispered Lance; “You said you don’t believe in happy endings for it is just for fairytales. Well for me I believe on it, for now I’m dreaming. I’m in fairytale. Should I say I’m Cinderella at this moment?” And inside her mind; “I hope the clock will not run. I hope it will always be twelve in the midnight.”

            A week after the romantic moment Niña saw Lance talking to Noreen. And she heard. “Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean? You know, during this past days I saw you smiling. When I see your smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most. You told me before that you will love me always and love me forever but when you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I die. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you. Lance I still love you. Can we bring back our love together?” Noreen said to Lance. “There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me. Noreen you will always be in my heart.” the reply of Lance to Noreen. Then Niña walk away in silence.

            Niña sheared it to her friend Tasha while she’s crying. "A mighty pain to love it is, and 'tis a pain that pain to miss; but of all the pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain." cried out by Niña. “In love, never put yourself in a situation where you're not sure of where you stand in a person's life...Never assume, never expect so that if they drop you, you have enough strength to move on.” advised by Tasha. Then Niña cried all through out the day. That was the time when Niña shown her weakness.

            The next morning when Niña went to school she pretends that she was fine. “Niña!” Lance called her. “Hi! Good morning!” she greeted Lance while she keeps on holding her tears to fall. “Are you fine? You look different.” asked by Lance. “Yah I’m very fine. Hehehe.” Niña pretends. “Can you go with me?” requested by Lance. “I’m sorry but I have some stuff to finish.” reasoned out by Niña. Then she went away from Lance. Then Lance sensed that their was something wrong.

            While Niña was watching the sunset she was in deep loneliness. “Do you miss him?” asked by Tasha. “I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.” indeed by Niña. Then her tears fall again on her chicks. Then she remembered during the time when she was crying and Lance wiped it and hug her. Then she started playing her piano in a lonely music. “Now my dream is over. Now I’m awake.”

            When Niña was walking in their school she bump someone. Then she said “I’m sorry!” then she realize it was Lance. “Hey are you okay? You look pale?” asked by Lance. “Lance, I want to say something…” indeed by Niña. “What? Tell me.” “I’m sorry!” “Why are you saying like that? You have nothing to say sorry.” said Lance. “I have a secret.” “What is it?” “I…I ..love…” whispered by Niña. “What?” asked again by Lance. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry because I had loved you, even though I know I have no right to love you!” cried out by Niña and run away from Lance. Then Lance was confused.

            Then starting from that day Niña would not talk to Lance anymore nor looking at him. It was a total separation between the two of them. While Lance was still in stage of questioning him self? Days till months passed, when Niña went back to her jolly identity. She met friends and was starting to move on. Till she was given a chance to perform at their school.

            The night of her performance she was very glad. But without her knowledge Lance was watching her. (♫ Piano playing ♪) Niña started playing, and then the people appreciated her talent. Till people saw Lance and requested that they will have duet. She had no choice but to obey as well as Lance. And they played together. Niña on her piano and Lance on his violin. It was a perfect music. People felt the music and gave standingobeysion for the both of them. Niña remembered it was her dream, to play with Lance. But suddenly it’s too late.

this story that i wrote is not yet done....

Christmas had passed away,

And New Year we are looking forward,

Everyone is filled with gladness,

But here I am feeling alone in the cold night.

Everyone is in love,

But some like me,

which is in sorrow and madness,

Oh how I miss someone which I know she

didn’t even think of me.

Waiting for a call or text message may be,

Till my phone was empty

still hoping

For your message,

You had greeted me Merry Christmas

And it means allot for me,

But I guess that was just a group message,

And I know it’s not intended for me.

This holiday season

Is my worst from those passed holidays,

For I had been a coward ,

Asking that Santa Clause is real,

For me to wish

That you will love me as I do.

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

  She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted.

And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen. She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbour when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires. The lake was our favourite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumour. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam." The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!" I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honour of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium. Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighbouring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly, "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has
been a week since she died. She died of Leukaemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........

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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.

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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

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Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the guy agreed.

When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of him self. Finally with all these hard work and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company...

"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself. "I must make it in life!"
One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!

Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery and he got out of his car and followed them...and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone... and he saw his precious paper cranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle ... therefore she had chosen to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just cried and said “Go to heaven with my paper cranes, my love”

...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again…

“The End."